Must Be Said, Then I Will Stop

Katie -- I never once tried to make you unhappy. If you are so much happier right now then I am happy for you, because it's better that way. I honestly don't believe I mistreated you as badly as you think, but that's just my opinion. You assume things about what I am doing with my life right now, just as I can do about yours. It does hurt that you are already spending the night at someone elses house after you said you want to be alone and date people. But that is your choice.

I will move on from this and become a better, stronger person. In many ways I already have -- I am no longer afraid to share with people things that are going on in my life or things that I have done with my life. For christs sake, I told my mom last night I've done drugs before -- something I would have never told her before. I can sit here and try to convince myself that I don't care about you by reminding myself of all the hurtful things you have done to me recently, as you can do about things I've done to you, but the truth is after 7.5 years I will always care about you... that feeling just can't go away.

I do wish you the best, and it's stupid to have petty arguments with you now because they solve nothing -- they are only ways to try and convince ourselves that we don't care about the other person anymore, which isn't physically possible -- because neither of us are that cold-hearted a person. Anyways, good luck to you and maybe I'll see you around someday.