A Realization Today

As I sat at work today I realized that a lot of people who were, and I emphasize were as some are no longer close or will be anymore, have hurt me drasitically by their own selfish decisions. Personally, I may still care about some, but because of their actions they will all get what they deserve in the end, while I feel I have done nothing wrong accept be close with them and feel pain because of their poor decision making processes. In the future I will get what I deserve for being the good person and dealing with all the fucked up shit that has recently just been thrown on me and I can't do anything about it except deal with it, move on, and be a better person.

I may have done bad things in the past, but I have learned from my mistakes and don't believe I have done ANYTHING recently that I deserved all the shit thrown upon me, but it happened. I will adapt and accept it, but it will take some time. Eventually I will become stronger and no longer feel any emotional swings, instead I will be a happier, healthier, stronger person. The person I should be and have earned to be. I am not a liar, coward, back-stabber, thief or asshole... I am a good person that somehow let myself get surrounded and exposed to too many bad people. No longer will I allow myself to not listen to my gut instincts anymore, because I have learned that pretty much every one I have had about anything was and is true.